When Andrew opened his eyes, his first thought was that he’d had one of the most pleasant dreams he’d had in a very long time. As his eyes caught sight of Kacey’s jeans tossed haphazardly in a pile on the floor, he felt his chest tighten. It hadn’t been a dream. God, it had all been real. All of it.
His mind flashed back to the bar. That wasn’t the way he planned on doing things. Confronting her in public, on a night where they were supposed to be tolerating each other for Doe and Jared’s sake, was not in the plan, but he couldn’t help it. They had been dancing together, bodies moving in sync without trying, indicating that there was something deeper between them that he didn’t want to ignore anymore. That he just couldn’t ignore anymore.
Confronting Kacey like he had shouldn’t have worked, but it had. I don’t know how to deal with it. That’s what she told him, her breath warm on his cheek, her body trembling against his. She didn’t know what to do with how she felt about him, which meant that whatever she felt was powerful, intense… The memory of his lips on hers brought a painful swelling sensation to his chest. It had been natural, so natural, the way they melted into each other, the way their bodies fit together. It was all too easy, letting go, giving her everything he had, letting himself feel for the first time in what felt like a lifetime. And for as much as he had given, she had given more. Kacey had dropped the walls she lived behind, allowing him for a brief time to get a glimpse of the woman underneath. She had let herself be vulnerable with him.
And then later that night, after getting home, it had taken all of his strength to hold himself back. He’d nearly mauled her, pinning her against the wall, kissing her hard and deep as his body held hers… Her lips on his neck and jaw, her fingers against the skin of his chest and abs, buried in his hair…everywhere she had touched him had burned, leaving a fiery path that even now, hours later, he could still feel. But the burning wasn’t just on the outside; it was internal, located somewhere in his chest area, gently waning and waxing in time with his breathing. His body had ached with desire, tempered mildly when they were tangled together, their limbs wrapped around each other, and then violently reignited every time they pulled apart the slightest bit.
As they lay together, breathing hard, it had felt like a piece of himself had fallen into place. Being with Kacey was natural, easy, right. Dear God did it feel right when he was with her, when he had her sleeping in his arms, her back pressed solidly against his chest, and the sweet scent of her hair filling his nose.
She had dozed off quickly, slipping easily into a deeper sleep, and Andrew had remained awake for quite a while longer, just watching her sleep. Her breathing was deep and even, her body warm and soft against his. An uncontrollable flood of emotion caused him to shake, so he’d clung to her tighter, heard her sigh softly, and almost lost his composure.
Andrew had struggled hard to keep himself together last night. He had wanted to take his time, but his body seemed to work on autopilot, stripping Kacey’s shirt off. He had sworn, cursed softly under his breath as he finally got a good look at her. Sure, he’d seen her numerous times over the years in the locker rooms as they changed, but he’d never seen her like that: flushed face, bruised lips, ragged breathing, her eyes half hooded in desire – for him. That realization alone sent blood flowing south.
Her skin was soft, unbelievably soft, and he’d been allowed to touch her, finally, allowed to let his fingertips trail across her skin, following the outline of her shoulder and arm, to the easy, graceful curve of her waist, leaving him breathless but yearning for more. So he took a deep breath to steady himself and then leaned closer, curling a finger under her chin to draw her to him, and then he kissed her. His self-restraint had never been tested so fully.
The kiss tasted to him of desperation, his own desperation, and though he did his best to keep it chaste, Andrew couldn’t help the unconscious message he was sending: I need you. Over and over and over again, until he realized his hand had hooked Kacey’s leg over his hip and he had just flipped them over, and –
Coherent thought flew out the window. Desire flooded his body, the ache somewhere deep inside his stomach flared, and he couldn’t help but press himself into her, shifting his hips against hers, and causing her to gasp and her eyes to roll back in her head. Jesus Christ. She was crumbling under him, her own resolve falling to pieces, and –
Holy hell. What had she done? Did that sound come from him? Andrew had scrambled off her body, still marveling at whatever Kacey had done to make him black out, but he couldn’t make himself move all the way away, so he just knelt over her, breathing heavily, trying to gain a sense of control over his own body again.
And then the atmosphere had shifted. She had giggled as he kissed his way up her stomach, as his facial scruff tickled her sensitive skin. He remembered her squealing playfully, and they both had laughed, him collapsing onto the bed beside her. They had bantered, teasing each other, until he couldn’t control the desire anymore. He needed her close, needed her in his arms, needed her.
And now… oh boy, and now…
He was on his stomach in bed, blankets only coming up to his waist, arms wrapped around his pillow. Kacey’s side of the – Kacey’s side? When had it become her side? – bed was empty. Presumably she was already up and moving. He sighed heavily, realizing her scent was on his pillow, and then sat up, stretching. He could hear a low buzz of voices that indicated at least two people were up. Noise came from Doe and Grizzly’s room down the hall, the sound of grunting that could only belong to Grizzly, so it stood to reason that Doe and Kacey were in the kitchen. He let his feet fall to the ground and stood.
A sudden wave of fear swept through him; what if last night was a mistake in her eyes? What if – He couldn’t deal with that train of thought. Andrew ran a hand through his hair. If that’s what she wanted to address it as, that was fine – shit. Who was he kidding? It wouldn’t be okay, it wouldn’t be anywhere close to okay if she wanted to – Andrew forced himself to take a deep breath and calm down. He had no way of knowing how she was going to react, so the best thing he could do would be to act normal and talk to her.
He padded softly down the hall, careful to not wake Kelly, and then into the kitchen.
“Morning.”
Andrew greeted the two women already in the kitchen. Doe was in a pair of yoga pants and an old t-shirt, and Kacey was dressed in his button down. Only his button down. All brain function stopped for a moment. Finally he glanced around.
“Where’s Jared?”
Doe answered with a nod towards their bedroom. “He’s getting ready to go for a run. I’m sure he wouldn’t mind if you wanted to join him.”
Andrew scratched at the back of his head as he tried to look nonchalant. “Maybe I will.” He couldn’t stop his eyes from finding Kacey’s.
Somewhere in the background, Doe busied herself with dishes. Andrew took a few steps forward, and as if pulled by magnets, so did Kacey. They met in the middle of the kitchen, still gazing silently at each other. A few errant strands of hair were in her eyes, so he reached up and pushed them out of her eyes. His breath caught.
“Are we okay?”
Where did that question come from? He wasn’t sure what had prompted the question, but nonetheless, he waited for an answer, his heart thundering painfully in his chest. Finally, he got one.
“Yeah,” she murmured. “We’re great.”
A smile spread across his face. “Good.”
Andrew bent down until his lips touched hers for a brief moment. His head swam pleasantly as he pulled away and moved for the doorway. After only a few steps, he spun back around and took two giant strides back to where she stood. He wound an arm around her waist, pulling her body, still soft and pliable from sleep, up against himself, used the other hand to cup her face and then kissed her long and deep, sending electricity through his veins.
“See you in a bit,” he managed before hurrying out of the kitchen.
He passed Jared on his way back to his bedroom, flashing him a stupid grin, and made it just inside the closed door before leaning back against it and sliding to the floor, the explosively euphoric feeling in his body nearly making him sick.
He had her. Or rather, she had him. Heaven help him, she most definitely had him.