Thursday, December 29, 2011

Kacey/Falcon - Lion King Wisdom


“Everybody has baggage,” Mary said, sliding into a chair across the table from her. “Especially you guys. It would be unnerving if you didn’t.”

Kacey rolled her head around on her shoulders, attempting to release some of the tension that had gradually been working its way up her neck.

“You two are cute together. No, wait – ‘cute’ is the wrong word. You two are attractive together. In fact, I think you guys might pass up Bradgelina as the most attractive couple on the planet.” She tipped her head down and fixed Kacey with a look. “Just don’t go adopting poor children from Africa. You have enough on your plate.”

Kacey snorted and lifted her coffee cup. “As if,” she answered, taking a sip.

Mary mimicked her, and for a couple moments the girls sat in silence, listening to the hum of conversation around them, broken sporadically by the coffee machines behind the counter.

“So why bring it up? Are things not going well at home?”

Kacey pressed her lips together and sighed heavily through her nose. “You could say that.”

“What’s going on?” Mary leaned forward, tucking her auburn bangs behind her ear.

“We fight,” Kacey admitted. “A lot. And not just bickering, but full-fledged, knock-down-drag-out fights.”

Mary’s forehead creased in concern and she broke eye contact to cast her gaze down at the table. “He doesn’t, you know…”

“Hit me?”

Her blue eyes were worried when she met Kacey’s again. “Yeah.”

“No. Believe me, we wouldn’t be having this conversation if he had. Jack and I would be out burying his body and scrubbing down the crime scene after I killed him.”

The expression on her friend’s face was suddenly unreadable. Mary looked like she was contemplating something, weighing her options, or maybe deciding how to approach something without offending her or making her angry.

“Just say it.”

“I don’t know… I don’t want to –“

“Have you met me? I don’t offend easily. In fact, I’m offended less if people will just speak their minds instead of sugarcoating everything.”

Mary’s head nodded slowly. “Well, I was just thinking that if things are that bad, then maybe it’s time to end it.” She paused. “Not that I’m saying you should, just that maybe –“

“Maybe you’re right.”

Kacey’s agreement seemed to catch her friend off-guard.

“What?”

“Maybe you’re right,” Kacey repeated. “Maybe it’s time to end things. Maybe it’s time to move on.”

“Would it be weird working with him if you did end it?”

Kacey’s face pulled downward and she looked over Mary’s shoulder to something along the back wall of the coffee shop. “I don’t think I’d stay here if I broke up with Andrew.”

Mary let out a surprised noise and set her cup on the table. “What? Where would you go?”

Kacey shrugged, taking a sip of her lukewarm coffee. “I don’t know. Anywhere. But I think the best thing for me might be to get away from everything; all of it.”

“Cut ties? With everything? Everyone?”

Again, she shrugged. “Yeah, why not? I’ve got such a screwy past that’s done nothing but cause problems in the present. Maybe I just need to get away and start completely fresh somewhere else.”

Mary wanted to say something, Kacey could tell from her expression.

“Come on, Mary. You’re my friend. Just say what you want to say, it won’t upset me.”

“I can’t speak from personal experience, but…” She looked up to meet Kacey’s eyes. “You can’t run from your past. It’s a part of who you are, for better or for worse, and it’s going to follow you no matter how far you run.” Mary suddenly looked sheepish, but she continued to speak. “You’ve seen ‘The Lion King’ haven’t you?”

Kacey gave Mary an odd look, but nodded her head in agreement.

“Then you have to remember the part where Simba’s talking to Rafiki and Rafiki smacks Simba with his stick, right?”

“Yeah…”

“Okay, and Simba asks why he did it and Rafiki says that it doesn’t matter, it’s in the past.”

“And Simba says that it still hurts.”

“Right, and Rafiki tells him that he can either run from it or –“

“ – learn from it.”

“Right.”

Mary didn’t continue, she just took a long drink from her cup and watched as Kacey contemplated what Mary had brought up.

Kacey knew inherently that Mary was right. She knew there was no way that she could outrun her past, but not running meant that she would have to deal with Andrew. And Alex. And the fact that she hadn’t seen her sister in over a year… And what about Jack? Jack had a life in DC. She couldn’t ask Jack to give that up… but Kacey couldn’t stay here. She knew that too.

“Life is messy, isn’t it?”

“If by messy you mean a shithole, then yeah.”

Mary gave a small grin.

“I don’t know,” Kacey admitted finally. “I don’t know what I’m going to do.” She checked her watch. “Actually, I know what I’m doing now. I’m heading into work because I’ve got a meeting with the director in a half-hour.”

“Good luck with that,” Mary chuckled. “I’m off today, thank God.”

“Enjoy it,” Kacey said, standing up. “Doesn’t happen too often.”

“Don’t I know it.”

“I guess I’ll see you around.”

“I’m sure you will. And Kacey?”

“Yeah?”

“If you decide to leave, make sure you at least swing by to say goodbye, alright?”

Kacey smiled. “I promise.”

Mary smiled in return and Kacey buttoned up her coat, picked up her coffee, and then headed back out into the snow.


Friday, December 2, 2011

Author's Note: Just for the Record

A lot of these pieces, most of them anyway, have to do with the characters' relationships. I'm trying to flesh them out and get a feel for all of them and what feels the most natural for each character's temperament. I'm also trying to get backstories straight. I'm sucky with backstories, so this is giving me a chance to work some of those out.

So yeah. Just for the record.

Viper & Derek


Alex = Viper
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“Look,” Derek said slowly, setting his glass down, “I don’t usually do this, but… would you like to go to my place?”

Alex’s eyebrows slid up his head.

“I don’t – I mean, I’m not expecting anything, I just –“ the cute surfer ran a hand through his sun-streaked waves. His blue eyes met Alex’s black ones. “I like talking to you. I don’t meet a lot of people that I – “ he seemed embarrassed as he fell silent.

Alex smiled and set his own glass on the bar. “Sure,” he said finally, salvaging the man’s dignity. “I don’t meet people that I get along with very often either.” Their eyes met again. “Although, I’m unsure as to why you find it hard to meet people.”

Derek didn’t seem to know what to say, so he just smiled and stood. “Did you drive?”

Alex shook his head. “My hotel’s a few blocks south.”

“Then I’ll drive.”

Derek led the way out of the bar, headed for the parking lot. Alex trailed after him. They passed a couple rows of cars before coming to a stop at a motorcycle. Alex couldn’t help himself. He whistled lowly and circled the bright red beast, getting a good look in the low light.

“What a beauty…”

“You like it?”

“A Ducati Superbike 1198, isn’t it?”

“Of course.”

Alex straightened up and looked at Derek. “So…”

Derek grinned, his teeth flashing in the low light. “Let’s go.”

He climbed on the front of the bike and Alex swung himself up behind the surfer.

Derek glanced back at Alex. “Hold on tight.”

Alex took a deep breath and then wrapped his arms around Derek.

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They raced at highly illegal speeds down nearly deserted highways, following winding roads that twisted through towering forests of trees, finally emerging onto a large driveway leading up to a house that very narrowly missed the definition of a ‘mansion.’

Derek guided the bike slowly up the drive, coming to a stop directly in front of the house. It was large, two-story, with a wide wraparound porch, pillars, and French double-doors.

“You live here?” Alex asked quietly, setting the helmet he’d worn on the back of the bike and approaching the front slowly.

He climbed the stairs leading to the porch slowly, taking a good look around. He lived on the beach. The attractive, single, twenty-something, gay surfer lived on the beach.

“You want to go inside or you just gonna stand there all night?”

Alex’s attention jumped back to the present, catching the playful grin on Derek’s lips. “Sure, I’d love to go inside.”

Derek unlocked the doors and led the way inside. He headed towards the back of the house, flipping on lights as he went. Alex took his time inside. It was a beautiful house, gorgeous, with high ceilings and typical beach style décor. Large, framed photos, absolutely breathtaking photos of a lone surfer on massive swells lined the hallway leading to the kitchen where Derek was tossing a few dirty dishes into the sink.

“You actually live here?” Alex wondered again.

“When I’m not traveling for work.”

“And with your work you can afford this?”

Derek gave him a serious look and Alex looked away, suddenly ashamed. Getting used to dealing with actual people was going to be a more difficult task than he imagined.

“I’m sorry,” he told the blond. “I really am. I’m just so used to being able to say what’s on my mind without worrying about whose feelings I’m hurting or who I’m offending.”

Derek nodded slowly, moving across the kitchen to lay a hand on Alex’s arm. “It’s okay.”

“It’s not. I sincerely apologize.”

Derek’s hand slid into Alex’s and he tugged the Asian with him, heading into another room.

“It’s fine, kind of refreshing actually. Come with me.”

They entered a darkened room that Derek quickly remedied with a lamp sitting near the corner of a desk. He dropped his guest’s hand and then leaned back on the edge.

“So you really have no idea what I do or who I am?”

Alex raised an eyebrow. “You’re not a pop-star are you?”

Derek snorted. “God, no.” He straightened up and finally approached a picture frame.

Alex tried to contain his curiosity as he watched Derek push the frame upwards, exposing a keypad. Derek’s fingers moved deftly, typing out a familiar number, and shortly after he finished, three beeps sounded followed by a mechanical hum. A bookshelf behind Alex suddenly moved forward and slid sideways, exposing a hidden shelf. It was lined with trophies. Surfing trophies. At least a dozen of them, probably closer to two-dozen. Alex studied them closer, noticing that about a third of them came from junior competitions and the other two-thirds were from statewide, nationwide, even worldwide competitions. And all but one of them were first place.

“Shit. I had no idea.”

Derek shrugged. “Come on.” He took Alex’s hand again and led him back into the hallway, coming to a stop in front of the largest photo.

“Is that – “

Alex started to ask but stopped himself, for fear of being wrong.

“Me? Yeah.” A smile damn near broke his face in half. “I was eighteen in that photo.”

“But that swell has got to be nearly thirty feet – “

“Thirty-two.”

“How the hell do you do it?”

Derek squeezed Alex’s hand and tugged him along again, leading him into the living room, where he flipped on a light and motioned toward the bookcase. Alex’s eyes drifted across the spines, reading the titles. They were math textbooks. And research journals. And other books, all about math.

“Okay… Do I get an explanation, or…”

Derek just shrugged, watching Alex’s face for the moment when it all came together.

“I really don’t –“

And then it all settled into place for him. Alex understood. Derek could pinpoint the second everything fell into place. He grinned.

“You use math to surf better.”

He continued to smile and dropped Alex’s hand. “Can I get you something to drink? I think I’ve got beer, wine, and possibly a little vodka left.”

“Wine would be great,” Alex answered, continuing to study the books.

Derek touched Alex’s shoulder just a brief moment before leaving him to pour some drinks. Alex studied the books in the bookcase, reading the titles on the spines, noticing that they weren’t in any particular order, large and small all intermixed, hardback and softcover, nonfiction and journals. Most of them looked older than both of them, but as he continued around the room, the books got newer, until he reached the end of the case, where one particular book was sitting on a picture frame stand.

Multivariate Calculus, Applied Physics, and the Art of Surfing. The author was listed as Derek Webb, PhD.

“You found it.”

Alex looked up. Derek was holding two glasses filled with red wine. He handed one to Alex, who took a small sip and smiled appreciatively.

“It’s good.”

Derek nodded. “I don’t know exactly what it is; just some expensive stuff my manager gave me.”

“Well, whatever it is, it’s very good.”

“Thank you.” Derek waved his hand towards the back door. “Want to go see the back deck?”

“Sure.”

They both headed to the backdoor, Derek leading the way out. Alex’s jaw dropped a bit as he stepped out onto the deck. The deck was spacious, lit by a couple lights near the back door, and Alex could hear the waves crashing about fifty yards away. A set of stairs led from the deck to the sand near a stone fireplace that had a few pieces of expensive looking outdoor furniture around it.

“This is amazing.”

Derek ducked his head, a slightly pink color rising in his cheeks. “Thanks.”

He watched as his guest slowly made his way toward the fireplace and took a seat in a large armchair. Alex’s eyes were still wide, taking everything in as if he’d never seen someone who lived in such luxury. Derek’s eyes lingered on Alex’s face, the sharp look he normally wore replaced by one softer, a look of awe. His eyes seemed to absorb the inky darkness around him, making them darker than usual.

“Does the fireplace work?”

Derek jumped a bit, startled back into reality by Alex’s question. “Uh, yeah. I’ll get it started if you want.”

“Yeah,” Alex answered easily. “That would be great.”

Derek moved for the backdoor and ducked inside. Alex turned back to the fireplace, behind which the sound of waves crashing continued to roll in. This place was fantastic, and from what he knew of Derek, just so him.

It had been a long time since Alex had hit it off with someone, and this was possibly the first time he’d hit if off with someone who played for his team or who wasn’t trying to get him out of the closet. He never dreamed he’d get along with someone like Derek; a rich, good-looking, free-wheeling surfer who looked like he’s just stepped off a beach photo shoot for GQ. But maybe that was why they did get along. Derek balanced Alex out.

The sudden burst of flames in the fireplace made Alex jump. A few moments later, the porch lights went out, and Derek reappeared, the wine bottle in his hand, his glass in the other, and a cheeky smile tipping his full and slightly chapped lips.

“Like it?”

Derek sank into the chair next to Alex’s, where a small table rested between them. He set the bottle down and then leaned back, reclining the chair, and propping his feet up on the raised hearth.

“I love it.”

“Good.”

Alex set his glass down and looked at Derek. The sky was cloudy so there wasn’t much moon or star light, but the fire cast flickering shadows across Derek’s face, making the features of his face appear more angular. The red and gold flames in the fireplace were reflected back in the pale blue of his eyes.

“So…” Derek said, shifting a bit.

Alex knew he was uncomfortable with the silence, so he took the opportunity to ask more about Derek’s math and his applications to surfing. With a single question, Derek began to speak quickly, excitedly, as if Alex was the first person that had seemed genuinely interested in what he did in a long time.

They talked about it for a couple hours, Alex asking questions and Derek answering them animatedly, using his hands to explain how water molecules moved within the waves, how those motions affected the physics and consequently the math behind the “art” of surfing. Derek talked about his childhood, growing up in the Midwest but having a summer home in California, learning to surf at twelve, realizing at fourteen that he was good, graduating from Cal Tech at eighteen with double undergrad majors in math and physics, and finally graduating from MIT with both masters and doctorates in Physics and Mathematics at the tender age of twenty.

“Wait,” Alex said, holding up a hand and turning to look at Derek. “You have two doctorates?”

Derek’s smile was sheepish. “Yeah. I’m currently working on research with a couple professors from MIT on the physics of surfing.”

“Are you paid?”

“Not much,” he chuckled. “The money comes from BreakerBoy.”

“The surf wear company?”

“One and the same. They’re my corporate sponsors.”

Alex raised his glass in a toasting motion and then took a sip. “You’re brilliant, and twice as accomplished as I’ll ever be.”

Derek’s smile remained, but his face took on a more serious look. “I’ve been unfairly blessed. I’m just doing my best with what I was given.”

“You’ve been given a lot.”

“Yeah,” he sighed, “yeah, I have.”

A sudden and overwhelming flood of emotion washed over Alex. Sorrow. He took a deep breath, steadying the rush that caused his head to spin.

“…Alex? You okay?”

Derek laid a hand on Alex’s arm and the latter turned to look at him. Derek’s forehead was creased in concern.

“Are you alright? You looked almost sick there.”

Alex started and gave the other man an odd look. “That’s really strange.”

“What is it?”

He shook his head. “Just strange, that’s all.”

Derek’s eyebrows pulled together as he studied Alex.

Alex was weighing his options, debating whether to be honest and open or whether to play it off.

“Something’s going on,” Derek murmured. “What is it?”

Derek’s confusion floated through Alex’s mind and mixed with his own confusion. This wasn’t going to be easy. He’d never felt someone’s emotions as strongly as he felt Derek’s. And he’d certainly never been caught off-guard by a rush of it.

“Alex? I’m starting to worry. Have you had too much to drink?”

Alex was jerked back into reality again. He was really getting sick of being surprised.

“No, I’m good. I just – “

Alex took a deep breath and then met Derek’s eyes through the shadows.

“I hope you won’t think I’m too strange.”

One side of Derek’s mouth lifted higher than the other. “I think I can handle it.”

“If you say so.”

“I do.”

His smile was encouraging and with that smile came another rush. Comfort.

“Well, truth is…” Alex sighed. “I’m an Empath.”

“You feel other peoples’ emotions?” Derek seemed honestly interested.

“Not everyone’s,” he admitted. “Just a few of those that I, uh, attended school with. It was only a select few or a general emotion from a group. But…”

“You felt it just now? With me?”

The surfer’s boldness surprised Alex. “Yeah.”

“What did you feel?” Derek was leaning in across the table, his hand still on Alex’s arm, over the snake tattoo.

Alex’s head tipped sideways a bit. “Sorrow,” he answered slowly. “A lot of sorrow.”

“Oh,” Derek said slowly. “Really?”

Alex nodded. “Yeah. I don’t know why, but that’s what I felt from you.” He paused, gathering his nerve. “Do you want to talk about it?”

Derek’s lips pressed together and he pulled his hand back. “Not really.”

Alex watched him put up a few walls. “It’s okay,” he told the blond, reaching for his hand again. “I just thought I’d ask.”

Derek nodded and glanced toward the fire. “I’ll tell you eventually, but not tonight.”

Alex felt the tingle of anticipation. He’d said not tonight, but that he’d tell him. That meant there would be a next time. Alex cleared his throat, filling the uncomfortable silence for a moment, before realizing that he still had Derek’s hand. He started to pull away, but Derek’s fingers caught his and wound their fingers together.

Alex looked up at Derek, who was already staring at him, a toothy grin on his face. Alex shook his head, one side of his mouth twisting upward. Everyone had secrets; hell, he knew that much better than most. So was it really that strange that Derek had some too?

“We good?” Derek asked quietly.

“We’re good,” Alex answered.

And they were. After a while, Derek asked Alex about what he was doing in San Francisco and where he lived normally, and Alex answered to the best of his ability without lying. After a few more questions, and a few more evasive answers, Alex finally sighed.

“Look,” he started slowly, measuring his words and debating how best to explain. “I can’t talk about the past few years. It’s not that I don’t want to, but I’m bound legally.” He met Derek’s curious stare. “And I don’t think it would be safe for either of us if I told you too much. But I don’t mind talking, and I don’t mind questions, and I’ll answer any that you have the best that I can, it’s just –“

A quick, but firm, squeeze of Alex’s hand brought his rambling to a stop. What had gotten into him? He never rambled. Ever.

“It’s cool,” Derek said. “No pressure.”

“Are you sure?”

Derek shrugged. “It is what it is. If you say you can’t talk about it, I respect that.”

The polite, and strangely understanding, answer surprised Alex. “Well, thanks,” he accepted lamely.

“You’re welcome.” Derek’s eyes wandered towards the ocean that was cloaked in darkness behind the fireplace. “So, do you follow sports at all?”

Viper - The Morning After

Alex = Viper
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What the hell was that racket?


Alex opened his eyes, realizing that he had dozed off at some point that early morning, his feet propped up on the raised hearth of the outdoor fireplace and comfortably reclined in Derek's expensive deck chair.

Derek.


The surfer was similarly positioned in a chair next to him, his eyes closed, still sleeping. A faint smile graced Alex's lips at the sight. Damn, that man was cute.


The obnoxious noise started up again and this time Alex recognized it for what it was - his cell phone. He checked his watch - 9:54 AM - and answered the phone.

"Al - Viper."

"Hey, it's Strat. Look, I know you're still recovering from that last assignment, but we need you for debrief. Can you get here soon?"

Alex groaned and stood up, shooting an irritated look towards the sky where the clouds from the previous night had broken up, leaving large swathes of bright blue visible. The sun was already climbing towards the highest point in the sky.

"Yeah," he sighed finally. "I can be there within the hour."

"Good, good." The man on the other end of the line sounded distracted.

"Later."

Alex hung up the phone and looked at Derek again. The man was out cold and he felt bad just leaving him there, but Alex knew he'd feel worse for waking him, so he slipped quietly into the kitchen and hunted up a scrap of paper and a pen. He scratched out a quick note, slipped it under Derek's wine glass, and check his phone. Time to call a cab. Alex needed a shower and caffeine before meeting the idiots.

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When Derek woke, he immediately noticed that Alex was gone. But before the disappointment smothered him, he noticed a note fluttering in the light breeze, tucked under his wine glass.

Hey. Sorry to take off without saying goodbye. Work called, and I had to go in for a while. I had a great time last night, but maybe you'll let me take you out on a proper date tonight. Let me know.
--Alex


A ten digit phone number followed his name. Derek smiled, folded the note, and pushed it into his pocket. He had a meeting with his manager that evening, but Mark be damned. A hot, single, mysterious, government employee carrying a gun wanted to take him and Alex was going to go. Mark would just have to deal.

Viper - Day After the Date

I'm kind of posting these in reverse order, which I guess since this thing posts the most recent first, it'll be in all the right order. So yeah.

PS - Alex = Viper
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Alex's phone rang a quarter after one in the afternoon as he was standing in line to get lunch.

"Hello?"

"Hey, it's Derek."

A smile crept across Alex's face. "Hey." He paused. "Sorry I left so early this morning. I got a call from work."

"It's cool," Derek answered easily. "I understand. And... I would love to take you up on an offer."

"Really?" Alex didn't mean to sound so surprised.

"Yeah."

"Okay, good. I'll pick you up at seven?"

"Sounds great. I can't wait." Derek actually did sound excited. "I totally didn't mean for that to rhyme," he chuckled embarrassedly.

"No problem. I'll talk to you later."

"Definitely. Later."

They hung up and Alex realized that Daniel was giving him a seedy grin.

"Who's the lucky girl?"

Alex frowned.

"Oh, come on..." he pushed. "Is she hot?"

"Yeah, actually," Alex snapped. "He's gorgeous."

The look on Daniel's face would have been priceless if it hadn't been so offensive.

"So, you mean you're -"

" - gay? Yes. Do you have a problem with that?"

Daniel's mouth opened and closed like a goldfish for a moment before he finally answered. "No! No, we don't. I don't."

"Good." Alex turned around and made his way to the counter to order.

Daniel was a tool. But Alex smiled inwardly knowing that he'd get his at the meeting later that afternoon.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Jaguar and Falcon; Shift [Jaguar's Perspective] - book two


When Andrew opened his eyes, his first thought was that he’d had one of the most pleasant dreams he’d had in a very long time. As his eyes caught sight of Kacey’s jeans tossed haphazardly in a pile on the floor, he felt his chest tighten. It hadn’t been a dream. God, it had all been real. All of it.

His mind flashed back to the bar. That wasn’t the way he planned on doing things. Confronting her in public, on a night where they were supposed to be tolerating each other for Doe and Jared’s sake, was not in the plan, but he couldn’t help it. They had been dancing together, bodies moving in sync without trying, indicating that there was something deeper between them that he didn’t want to ignore anymore. That he just couldn’t ignore anymore.

Confronting Kacey like he had shouldn’t have worked, but it had. I don’t know how to deal with it. That’s what she told him, her breath warm on his cheek, her body trembling against his. She didn’t know what to do with how she felt about him, which meant that whatever she felt was powerful, intense… The memory of his lips on hers brought a painful swelling sensation to his chest. It had been natural, so natural, the way they melted into each other, the way their bodies fit together. It was all too easy, letting go, giving her everything he had, letting himself feel for the first time in what felt like a lifetime. And for as much as he had given, she had given more. Kacey had dropped the walls she lived behind, allowing him for a brief time to get a glimpse of the woman underneath. She had let herself be vulnerable with him.

And then later that night, after getting home, it had taken all of his strength to hold himself back. He’d nearly mauled her, pinning her against the wall, kissing her hard and deep as his body held hers… Her lips on his neck and jaw, her fingers against the skin of his chest and abs, buried in his hair…everywhere she had touched him had burned, leaving a fiery path that even now, hours later, he could still feel. But the burning wasn’t just on the outside; it was internal, located somewhere in his chest area, gently waning and waxing in time with his breathing. His body had ached with desire, tempered mildly when they were tangled together, their limbs wrapped around each other, and then violently reignited every time they pulled apart the slightest bit.

As they lay together, breathing hard, it had felt like a piece of himself had fallen into place. Being with Kacey was natural, easy, right. Dear God did it feel right when he was with her, when he had her sleeping in his arms, her back pressed solidly against his chest, and the sweet scent of her hair filling his nose.

She had dozed off quickly, slipping easily into a deeper sleep, and Andrew had remained awake for quite a while longer, just watching her sleep. Her breathing was deep and even, her body warm and soft against his. An uncontrollable flood of emotion caused him to shake, so he’d clung to her tighter, heard her sigh softly, and almost lost his composure.

Andrew had struggled hard to keep himself together last night. He had wanted to take his time, but his body seemed to work on autopilot, stripping Kacey’s shirt off. He had sworn, cursed softly under his breath as he finally got a good look at her. Sure, he’d seen her numerous times over the years in the locker rooms as they changed, but he’d never seen her like that: flushed face, bruised lips, ragged breathing, her eyes half hooded in desire – for him. That realization alone sent blood flowing south.

Her skin was soft, unbelievably soft, and he’d been allowed to touch her, finally, allowed to let his fingertips trail across her skin, following the outline of her shoulder and arm, to the easy, graceful curve of her waist, leaving him breathless but yearning for more. So he took a deep breath to steady himself and then leaned closer, curling a finger under her chin to draw her to him, and then he kissed her. His self-restraint had never been tested so fully.

The kiss tasted to him of desperation, his own desperation, and though he did his best to keep it chaste, Andrew couldn’t help the unconscious message he was sending: I need you. Over and over and over again, until he realized his hand had hooked Kacey’s leg over his hip and he had just flipped them over, and –

Coherent thought flew out the window. Desire flooded his body, the ache somewhere deep inside his stomach flared, and he couldn’t help but press himself into her, shifting his hips against hers, and causing her to gasp and her eyes to roll back in her head. Jesus Christ. She was crumbling under him, her own resolve falling to pieces, and –

Holy hell. What had she done? Did that sound come from him? Andrew had scrambled off her body, still marveling at whatever Kacey had done to make him black out, but he couldn’t make himself move all the way away, so he just knelt over her, breathing heavily, trying to gain a sense of control over his own body again.

And then the atmosphere had shifted. She had giggled as he kissed his way up her stomach, as his facial scruff tickled her sensitive skin. He remembered her squealing playfully, and they both had laughed, him collapsing onto the bed beside her. They had bantered, teasing each other, until he couldn’t control the desire anymore. He needed her close, needed her in his arms, needed her.

And now… oh boy, and now…

He was on his stomach in bed, blankets only coming up to his waist, arms wrapped around his pillow. Kacey’s side of the – Kacey’s side? When had it become her side? – bed was empty. Presumably she was already up and moving. He sighed heavily, realizing her scent was on his pillow, and then sat up, stretching. He could hear a low buzz of voices that indicated at least two people were up. Noise came from Doe and Grizzly’s room down the hall, the sound of grunting that could only belong to Grizzly, so it stood to reason that Doe and Kacey were in the kitchen. He let his feet fall to the ground and stood.

A sudden wave of fear swept through him; what if last night was a mistake in her eyes? What if – He couldn’t deal with that train of thought. Andrew ran a hand through his hair. If that’s what she wanted to address it as, that was fine – shit. Who was he kidding? It wouldn’t be okay, it wouldn’t be anywhere close to okay if she wanted to – Andrew forced himself to take a deep breath and calm down. He had no way of knowing how she was going to react, so the best thing he could do would be to act normal and talk to her.

He padded softly down the hall, careful to not wake Kelly, and then into the kitchen.

“Morning.”

Andrew greeted the two women already in the kitchen. Doe was in a pair of yoga pants and an old t-shirt, and Kacey was dressed in his button down. Only his button down. All brain function stopped for a moment. Finally he glanced around.

“Where’s Jared?”

Doe answered with a nod towards their bedroom. “He’s getting ready to go for a run. I’m sure he wouldn’t mind if you wanted to join him.”

Andrew scratched at the back of his head as he tried to look nonchalant. “Maybe I will.” He couldn’t stop his eyes from finding Kacey’s.

Somewhere in the background, Doe busied herself with dishes. Andrew took a few steps forward, and as if pulled by magnets, so did Kacey. They met in the middle of the kitchen, still gazing silently at each other. A few errant strands of hair were in her eyes, so he reached up and pushed them out of her eyes. His breath caught.

“Are we okay?”

Where did that question come from? He wasn’t sure what had prompted the question, but nonetheless, he waited for an answer, his heart thundering painfully in his chest.  Finally, he got one.

“Yeah,” she murmured. “We’re great.”

A smile spread across his face. “Good.”

Andrew bent down until his lips touched hers for a brief moment. His head swam pleasantly as he pulled away and moved for the doorway. After only a few steps, he spun back around and took two giant strides back to where she stood. He wound an arm around her waist, pulling her body, still soft and pliable from sleep, up against himself, used the other hand to cup her face and then kissed her long and deep, sending electricity through his veins.

“See you in a bit,” he managed before hurrying out of the kitchen.

He passed Jared on his way back to his bedroom, flashing him a stupid grin, and made it just inside the closed door before leaning back against it and sliding to the floor, the explosively euphoric feeling in his body nearly making him sick.

He had her. Or rather, she had him. Heaven help him, she most definitely had him.